Monday, November 12, 2007 i had so much fun with danielle and kevin last week. i'm moving in with them soon, i can't wait. omg. i haven't felt like this in years. they've proven to me that josh didn't really ruin me, or break me. i'm still here and i'm loving every minute of life now. strange, how the world stops when your life is completed. i've found my other half. sure, i have a twin sister, but danielle is what's in my left. i love you girl. don't ever change. Tuesday, November 06, 2007 hell yeah, this site is nearly finished! btw if you want access to my protected section, you MUST contact me through email. look up to find the link to me. i'll let you know when that section is complete. only the first 20 people get free access, so get to your inbox now! ooooo i can't wait. two days girly! i miss you so much... Monday, November 05, 2007 i added a new music page with some pics of my inspirations and such, check it out! remember, if you have sound/speakers available, please turn them on now. a new song and layout will be added every two weeks or so. depending on my time. i'm trying to get this site moved to my own domain, rather than yahoo geocities sub hosting me. i'll give more info on that asap. Sunday, November 04, 2007 well, i got this site half way finished yesterday, four hours on this crap. oh well, it's my career. and i love it! haha, yeah, me and dani are getting together later this week, i'm so happy! i've missed her so much, i feel bad about just falling away from the world, but i'm back! and feeling better than ever. fuck you, i'm gonna get my girl Saturday, November 03, 2007 i'm completely reconstructing this site. geocities closed my other web page down. stay tuned for more updates! Wednesday, April 26, 2006 hey everybody. more new things added today. vanity page has a few more pics. the restricted content is updated as well. new pics there. still working on a few things. i haven't had much time for anything.me and danielle, well. i feel so bad. i should've dropped it all. like that song from Nickelback, "Savin' me" and that's what it feels like. but i don't know what stands anymore. everything's fallen. they all know i can't do this. i know i can't shake this. i don't want to be divorced at 20yrs old. i'd feel like i lost each and every one of those years to heartache. i don't want to leave on bad terms. and i don't want her to think she is in our way. like she said, i know someone can take me away, josh knows someone will take me away, but i seem unwilling. i just don't want to come between her and kevin. like she doesn't with me and josh. i wish it didn't have to be this way. but, i'll just leave it well alone. i'll miss you sweety. Prison gates won't open up for me On these hands and knees I'm crawlin' Oh, I reach for you Well I'm terrified of these four walls These iron bars can't hold my soul in All I need is you Come please I'm callin' And oh I scream for you Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin' [Chorus:] Show me what it's like To be the last one standing And teach me wrong from right And I'll show you what I can be Say it for me Say it to me And I'll leave this life behind me Say it if it's worth saving me Heaven's gates won't open up for me With these broken wings I'm fallin' And all I see is you These city walls ain't got no love for me I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story And oh I scream for you Come please I'm callin' And all I need from you Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin' [Chorus] Hurry I'm fallin' All I need is you Come please I'm callin' And oh, I scream for you Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin' [Chorus] Hurry I'm fallin'   Thursday, April 13, 2006 i uploaded new pics to the vanity page. there are quite a few. some from the other day, with my long hair, then more from today, with my new do. i do have more pics for the restricted page, for all of you that have a password. i just can't find the time for them. they require a little more effort to make them work, if you know what i mean. i'm hoping by next week to have those up on here. i will update when i do, so you won't be in the blue. just be patient with me. i don't get much time online. hang in there though, keep checking back. Wednesday, March 29, 2006 i added my quiz results on the about me page. just random quizzes i've taken that just simply fill up the hard drive. soon, i'll be adding a whole new page with avatars/graphics/icons/etc. nothing important, just the simple things that reflect who i really am. keep checking back for that, you may be suprised at what you find. Saturday, March 25, 2006 finally, i got the password protection to work. go to the pictures page and fill out the form. i'll send you the link and your username/password. it may be a day or two, just be patient. Friday, March 10, 2006 I have new pics on the vanity page. my hair is curly for the first time in any pictures i've taken. that's a change. um, on that page also, there is a place to view restricted content with a password. i can't get that thing to work, so it may be a while. but you will have to email me a request to see it. there's too many old perverted men and young boys out there to simply use that page freely on my site. i'm sorry about that. i will update when i get that fixed. it shouldn't take too long. Saturday, March 04, 2006 I'm so unhappy about missing out last night. I wanted to party with Danielle, but I've got so much to do. And I need to think about this situation. I wish is wasn't this hard. I don't like to choose. I'm not going to. I just need to get it straight. And run with whatever I may feel. - updates - i will have some new photos posted within a couple of days. you might like them. Thursday, March 02, 2006 finally, i finished this website. it took me a while, but it's almost there. to whoever made this layout, i hope it was ok for me to edit it and make it customized for me. i still left your credits. you did a great job! i will be adding things and updating my site, so keep coming back. Thursday, February 23, 2006 lol today i got an Average Rating on my pic of 6.9 how odd   Monday, August 22, 2005 i figured when the time comes, i'll know what to do. but for right now, i'm stuck in this. he knocks me down, but still manages lifts me up high. i'm so confused, i'm so pissed off at all of this. i'm so unwanted, yet he won't let go of me, and i can't let go of him. if i had the will, i'd walk away from all of this, but i can't do it this time. he wants me happy, but honestly, his constant yelling and hard-up attitude is what makes me hurt. he doesn't understand, and never will. i just wish i didn't have to keep explaining myself. Sunday, July 17, 2005 i don't care if nobody understands who or what i'm wrting about, cause it's my writing. i can understand it, and that's all that matters.